Saturday, December 10, 2011

Shifty Eyes

I'm not sure I've mentioned enough how much I LOVE having a boy.  I love my girls so much and when I found out I was pregnant this last time with a boy I was a little nervous to enter into that unchartered territory, but let me tell you it has rocked my world.  I don't know, maybe, it's the combination of him being my boy and my third (maybe final) child, but sometimes I snuggle and squeeze and kiss and rock him in absolute denial that when he is 30 he probably won't want to let me do that anymore...I really think he might let me (hee-hee).  

My sweet bubs.  We had to take him in to see an opthamologist at the local medical institute because he has uncontrollable eye movement.  We found out he has congenital nystagmus (congenital meaning from birth).  It may or may not cause slight to significant complications with his vision.  As of right now we know he is really near-sighted.  They don't correct it right now but we will go back in a little over a month from now and be able to know more about what is causing it, and maybe a better idea of what the future will hold.  Am I surprised at the state of imperfection this side of heaven?  No, not at all, I expect it.  Have I cried?  Yes, indeed, I think it's the mommy in me.  I want him to be in a garden of roses but without the thorns.  Can I trust a perfect and sovereign God to give us every little thing we need to handle the circumstance no matter the severity?  Yes, I do.  He has given us EVERYTHING we need for life and godliness through the knowledge of Him (2 Peter 1:3) as written in his word.  I look forward with anticipation to seeing what and how the Lord sees us through.  I look forward to sharing more about Jesus with Rowen as he may struggle with his vision or being able to drive or play sports or people asking about his eyes.  

I pray that Rowen can sing this psalm 16 in his heart as worship one day.

"The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
I bless the Lord who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure.
For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol, or let you holy one see corruption.
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore."

and I pray that though he may not be able to focus his physical eyes on much that he will focus much on Christ as his strength, security, fullness, pleasure, comfort, keeper and so much more.  To God be glory and praise always!

Here is my sweet boy at 5 months.

I am due to write about all of us I know!  I have no time it seems these days but will try soon.  It is also apparent that I NEED a blog makeover for Christmas.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

What's up...

It is awesome being a mommy to my sweet little boy.  I honestly am so grateful for the family that God has blessed me with.  My cup surely does overflow!  I am not just saying that because it sounds good either.  My husband is amazing.  He is so smart and driven such a hard worker and succeeds at all he sets his mind on doing.  My kids each have their own personalities that absolutely captivate me.  We've been battling sickness in this house for the past few days.  Carson started it Sunday night when she struck a fever it only lasted about 24 hours and she was better.  Darby woke up this morning with it.  They get such high fevers it's crazy at one point with both they had a 103. something fever on the medicine and I was not due to give them any for a while!

So better late than never is was they always say, and I sure hope they are right.  Rowen is now only 9 days away from being 4 months yet I still have not documented his 2 month appointment!  So what did I learn at his visit?  Well, he had dropped from 95th percentile in weight to 25th so I had to start supplementing with formula.  Which is okay bc I want him to be well fed and I think being the third baby in the house I had so much going on and my milk just couldn't keep up.  That, and it never came in to the full amount that it did with the girls.  So then, just about a week ago I switched to bottles only because he just seemed hungry and it was so much to try and figure out what/if he was getting in breast milk.  He was at that appointment measuring in at 25th for weight, 60th for head circumference and 75th for height.  He is a very smiley, very happy baby!  I am sooo sad to see him getting bigger and bigger!  

Here is a picture of him taken right at 3 months by some photographer friends of ours.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

What's on my mind?

If I could bottle up the sweetness of my baby boy there wouldn't be enough containers in the world!  I'd say this about all three of my sweet kids!  I am so blessed beyond my own comprehension!  So thankful for HIS sweet grace and tender mercies!

So that was my facebook status tonight.  I literally have tears as I consider this.  I can't even believe my boy will be 2 months tomorrow.  I'm not usually this sentimental/emotional about things but maybe it's the fact that this is my last child (unless we adopt, more on that later) or maybe it bc I feel like God's grace has given me a deeper appreciation for my young children as I see how rapidly they grow.  I don't know but I can say that life this side of heaven (wink wink) is full of busyness, obstacles, pain, sorrow and what have you and I tend to be one to experience those things more than the sweet things, the loving, joyful things that God also gives us in His great kindness and favor and love toward us.  So I am especially thankful for the state of my heart right now.  Praise Jesus, and I am thankful for facebook asking me what was on my mind tonight so I could take some time and enjoy Him!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

I'm baaaaack (again)

So much has happened since I last blogged!  I mean heck, it's been since December!  My goodness, how irresponsible slack of me!  Honestly, it's a time issue.  I'm not very technological and so it takes time and effort for me to grace this blog with pictures of what I write about.  I have to (assuming they are loaded on the computer already) save them as smaller files to upload, edit them, watermark them, and make sure they are "cool" enough to fit in in blog land.  At least that's the pressure I put on myself.  On top of that I have to be creative to have something to write about and keep folks entertained, psssh that's not happening.  Especially now that times 3 now my brain has shrunk with the pregnancy of a child.  So yeah Rowen's here now (there goes more time).  But, (did I just enlarge the fact that I started a sentence with a but?) now more than ever I NEED to blog!  My children are growing up right before my eyes!   Baby boy, Rowen, Bubby (all names we like to call him), will be 2 months in 3 short days!  I don't do a good job at recording their milestones or experiences or the cute things that come out of their mouths so I must blog them.  So this is for my sweet sweet Darby (4), Carson (2), and Rowen (as we previously established almost 2 months orrr zero as Darby likes to refer to him).  They may not be the most graceful writings you've ever laid eyes on, or the coolest ideas, or have the best pictures ever (shoot, it may not have pictures at all), but I'll be glad to have a record for my babes.  I hope that pictures will frequent this blog but you can consider the ideas or recipes a bonus when I have time for such!  No pictures for today BUT I will leave you with probably the sweetest video of a baby ever in history (of course I am biased tho).

Make sure you turn the volume up and for some reason it automatically starts instead of you pressing play so you can stop it and restart time to figure it out and as I said...not too technological here.